make me yours.
Haven’t really posted in a while, and, well, I really only post cause I hope you’d read it and maybe understand me a little better. Well admittedly this week has been shit. It started out when my braces broke, and when I got my phone for contact purposes I suddenly got the message that my aunt died. To me her death made me realize many things; that’s not to say that her death...
here we go again.
I guess.. I’m really quite lost? I don’t know what to do, on one hand I wanna be selfish and want you all for myself, I get jealous just looking at pictures and … yea you get my drift. But on the other, I just wanna be supportive and be there for you in everything you do. Couldnt really sleep last night cause I was just thinking.. and thinking. Just hate the fact that I cant be...
RT tdy.. sucked. It’s not that I mind going for training on saturdays, rather, it was more slack than i expected. So a waste of time, well, not completely. Super long journey home but thankfully my friend was there to talk, and a good one it was. Then rushed out to meet J (: slacked about at Starbucks for a bit then explored duxton area. Quite a nice place but food is too exp! But we found...
Can you be disappointed even though it’s what you expected?
Finding a nice toilet to bomb is alw a good idea haha.
Booking in soon. Really dreading the week ahead, because I’m unsure about the confinement issue. Praying hard that it won’t come to pass. In any case, baby if you’re reading this please know that I love you. Started off today on the wrong foot and I apologize, so let’s make up and move on alright? I still love you like mad and I can’t wait to see you next week! Esp...
Survived 6 days of field camp+ sitest package. Well, it was actually pretty enjoyable, and the only thing that I didn’t like was being away from j for so long. And what aggravated it was the fact that my phone had to spoil when I returned to coy line, and I couldn’t even tell her that I was back, safe and sound and anxiously waiting to see her. But the bad news was yet to come; I...
Bye bye for 3 weeks. I love you girlfriend!
These 3 weeks are gonna be tough. But I’m gonna man up and get through bmt. It rly isn’t the physical training I’m apprehensive about, rather the emotional torment from being away from my loved ones, especially J… But… (: I’m confident heh.
I’m an idiot hagahahahga^^
I burnt my thumb. . . Now before you start judging, hear me out here: being the nice filial son that I am, cooked dinner for the family. Yes yes I know, you’re thinking, “it must suck” and all that, well, it didn’t. So there, go cook your own dinner you judgmental kids. On a side note, my hands reek of garlic.
I have never blamed you, thats all I’m trying to say. I’m sorry you feel the way you do, for the things I’ve said or not said- all that I can tell you that it was never intended the way you thought it. At the end of the day, I still love you. And I’m praying that the feeling is mutual..
Sorry I made you cry again… But I’m trying ): I don’t even know what I did, or did not do, wrong :/
Sigh, missing you alr. How to survive Taiwan/ confinement week/ NS?
From me to you
If it’s one thing I promise you, let it be this: that it’d work out in the end. I’m not just paying lip service, I’m determined to make it come to pass. And I need you to remember those tears, cause it’ll be worth every drop. One day we’ll look back, and we’ll be glad that it happened (: “In the end, it will be ok. If it’s not ok, it’s...
Finally back from the Big Apple, and still jet lagged as hell. Phew, and a big one at that, but the all in all the trip was good! Once in a lifetime kinda thing. I think if there was something I got back from this experience was that, I shouldn’t take things for granted. In everything, be it family, friends or even public transport I am truly blessed and I need to learn to appreciate...
Over the past few days we’ve hit a rough patch. Now, this isn’t some major argument per se but as with everything I think we should take a step back and reflect. Let me just say that we’ll undoubtedly come out of this much stronger than before, as long as we keep our heads straight and hearts together. I’ve promised that this would be the last that I’d pursue this...
The only place I’m lost, is in your eyes– Anon (:
On a lighter note, yesterday was good. Woke up to a hearty breakfast, followed by a jet-ski session which was fun (: chartered a boat out to st.kitts, and snorkeled. Almost died but the view above and below the Caribbean was stunning. We caught the sunset and it was exhilarating. The only regret I have was that you weren’t with me to enjoy the moment. Oh and the captain was really friendly,...
Baby if you’re gonna read this, it’s for you. I really love you and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I know recently we’ve been arguing, over the smallest things. I guess it happens but it cannot go on. Like I said, it’s easy to blame each other but we should talk it out and clear things by the end of the day, which, I’m glad we do. But let me rationalize...
I miss my girlfriend. Period (pun lol)
Trip has been awesome so far; really taking in the sights and sounds of the big apple and Caribbean. Though, both are starkly different by nature- one a bustling metropolis and the other a resort with a stunning view. In any case I am enjoying life (: Ahh but I miss j so much! Can’t wait to get back to see her (: if you’re reading this, ily ^^
My eyes are burning, throat feels like sandpaper, limbs are weak, and I’m having massive moodswings. I’m breaking down(physically)… ah but I’m glad everything cleared up anw (: sleep in peace. And if you’re reading this,
we let our rivers run.
Woke up confused today.
It’s been so long since I’ve woken up with such a heavy heart… ):
confidence, or resigned to my outcome?
I’m sitting here, thinking about tomorrow- what will be like? What will I get? Where do I go if I don’t do well? And I’m waiting, waiting for the assurance from up there, that everything will be okay, His plans are still transcendent. But…. I don’t get it. Why? Is it because I’ve sinned? Is it because I’m so far away from Him? Is it because I...
Let’s start from… yesterday (I shall refrain from talking about my morning, cause it was sure as hell not a pleasant one). So after 2 weeks of confinement, the botaks finally booked out, and managed to see the most of them. Chomp chomp choked me half-dead, but was made up by good food and fantastic company. Pity the mini gym-session wasn’t comprehensive/intensive enough to...