Over the past few days we’ve hit a rough patch. Now, this isn’t some major argument per se but as with everything I think we should take a step back and reflect. Let me just say that we’ll undoubtedly come out of this much stronger than before, as long as we keep our heads straight and hearts together. I’ve promised that this would be the last that I’d pursue this matter, as long as your heart is with me. Let me elaborate a little here:
I’ve told you that I’m more or less irascible, and I hope that you forgive me for that. On top of that, I’m extremely sensitive which.. Might or might not be a bad thing. Over the past few days, I’ve learnt many things- treauring every single minute with you, not being so childish and immature, etc. - and although I’m still at this learning stage, I’ve come to realize that I’m really deeply and madly in love with you. I’m not lying when I say there are so many things I’ve yet to find out about you, and vice versa, about our nuances and idiosyncrasies, and it’s definitely a learning process which might be difficult to get used to. I hope you’re with me here, and though I say it’s difficult, it is necessary and I’m sure we can get through it together as we always have. Who knows, it might be an enjoyable development after all.
The important thing is, I’m just so in love with you, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Regarding the issue at hand, as you know by now that my worry in borne out of love for you my dear and I hope you don’t misunderstand me. I might be harsh at times and I ask for your forgiveness again, but I genuinely care for you- always have and always will. And as long as I have your word that you are trying to reciprocate these actions, frankly that’s enough for me, but remember, no empty promises here. I don’t want anymore stupid arguments that are just so detrimental to us anymore. I mean, we have such a long future ahead of us and this is just… Insignificant!
And now I know you’re thinking about my previous r/s, and if I can be honest with you, it just wasn’t what I was looking for. We were not open with each other, and I felt that I had to put on such a huge pretense in front of her and everybody. I knew we wouldn’t work out anyway. But with you it’s so much different my dear, for the first time I feel so comfortable in my own skin, something that even my family could not provide. For the first time I can bare my soul to someone, and not feel ashamed. For the first time I can be myself. And I know, I know that we will last. And just so you know, I’ve never regretted asking you to be mine, not for a second. So please don’t think any other way, alright? I love you with everything I have and everything I am.
Promise me something, alright? Yea it might seem too idealistic right now but, promise me that you’ll love me no matter what comes our way. If you have done that, I want you now to smile like an idiot to your screen ^^ hahaha.